It rained all day today which seriously muffed plans of planting. Even the dogs seemed depressed about it.
Healing physically seems slow and painful but often emotional healing is even harder. I spent a few hours today listening to Firewind not just because they are my favorite band but because their music always makes me feel.
I either feel good because I'm relating or I feel stronger because I know I can and will heal, this wheelchair is temporary. I know most people don't get that but it makes sense to me.
From Ozzy's "Diary of a Madman" to Firewind's "Broken" on to Divinefire's "The Ressurection", my head is reeling with thoughts. Remembering when I could walk and run, play out in the rain with the dogs, live life in the wide open spaces that all seem so far away now.
I don't post a lot of my inner self on Twitter but I do here. It's good therapy when the rain brings you too much time to sit and think. I'm finally getting to know me, someone I have not known for a long long time now.
I try to learn from everyone because in many ways every person has something to teach you. One thing Gus G and the awesome Firewind have taught me is this, it's going to be okay.
For Monday today was pretty good. It has been super windy all day so not much got done outside, still drying out from last weeks torrential downpours. We are again staring down the barrel of tornadic weather season, last year in April it got pretty wild. By the Graces of God we didn't have many problems but each year mother nature up's her steroid usage and the weather becomes even more unpredictable. We never know after dark what is looming out there in the wide open spaces. This is where our trust and faith in God has to be very strong and ingrained in our lives, without we would have nothing. I also must admit that since cutting loose all of our "friends" as THEY called themselves our days are smoother and our lives getting back on an even keel. Personally, I need no audience and will not be someone else's audience just so they can feel better about themselves or hide from reality or live vicariously through a game or bottle. Being free is GOOD. Will I pray for them? Yes but that doesn't mean we are doormats or designated drivers for their intoxicated egos.
On a business note, our designs will be completed by end of May and will be available here on K9Country by mid June so keep an eye out for that! And don't forget to look us up on Twitter just to say hello!
Goodnight and God Bless.
I'm afraid I have not dedicated today to the Lord as I should have.
Since we are both in the process of healing and trying to make needed changes, sometimes it seems we overlook today, Sunday.
In happier news however, Spring has sprung early and our garden is being started which will help us provide for ourselves in many ways. By February's end God willing we will be able to officially start our business and from there begin our dream, K9Ranch.
In other news, well... maybe tomorrow. :P
Have a great evening!
"Things are different, I'm making changes." I have been lmao for weeks over hearing this. Leopards don't change their spots and whiners don't go far without their "blame someone else" BS. Yes, some people DO change, but only when they realize and ADMIT they are part of the problem too. I know very few if any who do this.
I have however seen petty, selfish and just plain greedy, whiney people over the last few weeks and I decided that for me and my family, enough is enough. Far too long have we dealt with these people who call themselves a friend and have remarkably proven that wrong.
So, that being said, our lives have in fact been changing and all those who have served to muddy the waters, PRETEND like anything about us matters or have just downright lied to us, on us or about us have been cut loose, bye bye, see ya. We have started over with ALL new everything and surprisingly enough are doing MUCH better emotionally, physically and spiritually. This makes me more certain than ever that we are FINALLY walking in the right direction. Long overdue I'd say. So, I'm off to finish my book and get it sent off, whoever visits here, have a GREAT weekend and God Bless you and yours.
Oh and for you self hating non believers out there, if ya don't believe in God, don't steal religious graphics, quotes or sayings off sites, it makes you look hypocritical and confused. You know who you are, Nuff said.
I am usually a pretty easy going person and don't judge other people for any reason unless they mean to cause harm to my loved ones, but lately (very recently) I have yet again been "called out" by a bunch of "Christians" over my Halloween website. Okay here's the deal once and for all just so I can vent this, NO OFFENSE meant to anyone.
I am not an ordinary Christian, in fact I am not a Christian by today's standards at all, I am like everybody else a child of God, period plain simple. For those who do not believe in a God that is your choice and I do not hold your beliefs against you. I do believe in him and I have to say quite frankly it's the non believers or "fence riders" who don't judge me, funny those good and moral "Christians" do. Says all I need to know about that.
I am not perfect, I sin, I make mistakes like everyone else, I am not evil nor do I practice evil, I love Halloween so sue me. I run a Halloween website, whoopty doo. I also run a Pet site, and forum.
I have about had it with these religious bigots, NOT what God designed and it's the so called self made Christians causing so much atheisim in our society, not that they would ever admit to THAT. Just my opinion.
When non believers and non christians treat me with more respect than the religious christians out there, something somewhere is very very wrong.
Don't get me wrong here, there are some good and decent Christians out there who are taking the hits for the not so Christian Christians, but they are few and far between from what I have been seeing, hearing and experiencing. My relationship with God is between God and I, not a selective group of judgemental arrogant so called Christians. God does not tolerate arrogance so think about that for awhile those who are judging me for a HALLOWEEN oriented website. A site by the way that is about, HALLOWEEN.
To all those who do not judge me and have shown me respect regardless of their beliefs I thank you and you will get the same from me in return, always.
Rant over-Peace out.
And so the New Year begins. I can't say I'll miss much of 2011 but I am hoping for a better 2012 all the way around. I think it has possibilities as long as I stay open to it and not become closed off like I did last year. I'm finally learning that I'm not all alone and that sometimes those who drift in and out of our lives are the ones we learn the most from. Putting your trust out there isn't easy but it can often be worth the effort. My New Year's resolution is to continue getting to know me and those around me, learning is an intrical part of growing and I for one do not want to sit stagnant for this brand new year. I'll make my mistakes, learn as much as I can, and pray A LOT. Happy New Year to you