I'm afraid I have not dedicated today to the Lord as I should have. 
Since we are both in the process of healing and trying to make needed changes, sometimes it seems we overlook today, Sunday. 
In happier news however, Spring has sprung early and our garden is being started which will help us provide for ourselves in many ways.  By February's end God willing we will be able to officially start our business and from there begin our dream, K9Ranch.
In other news, well... maybe tomorrow. :P
Have a great evening!
"Things are different, I'm making changes."  I have been lmao for weeks over hearing this. Leopards don't change their spots and whiners don't go far without their "blame someone else" BS. Yes, some people DO change, but only when they realize and ADMIT they are part of the problem too.  I know very few if any who do this. 
I have however seen petty, selfish and just plain greedy, whiney people over the last few weeks and I decided that for me and my family, enough is enough.  Far too long have we dealt with these people who call themselves a friend and have remarkably proven that wrong. 
So, that being said, our lives have in fact been changing and all those who have served to muddy the waters, PRETEND like anything about us matters or have just downright lied to us, on us or about us have been cut loose, bye bye, see ya.  We have started over with ALL new everything and surprisingly enough are doing MUCH better emotionally, physically and spiritually. This makes me more certain than ever that we are FINALLY walking in the right direction. Long overdue I'd say. So, I'm off to finish my book and get it sent off, whoever visits here, have a GREAT weekend and God Bless you and yours. 
Oh and for you self hating non believers out there, if ya don't believe in God, don't steal religious graphics, quotes or sayings off sites, it makes you look hypocritical and confused. You know who you are, Nuff said.
I am usually a pretty easy going person and don't judge other people for any reason unless they mean to cause harm to my loved ones, but lately (very recently) I have yet again been "called out" by a bunch of "Christians" over my Halloween website. Okay here's the deal once and for all just so I can vent this, NO OFFENSE meant to anyone.

I am not an ordinary Christian, in fact I am not a Christian by today's standards at all, I am like everybody else a child of God, period plain simple. For those who do not believe in a God that is your choice and I do not hold your beliefs against you.  I do believe in him and I have to say quite frankly it's the non believers or "fence riders" who don't judge me, funny those good and moral "Christians" do. Says all I need to know about that.

I am not perfect, I sin, I make mistakes like everyone else, I am not evil nor do I practice evil, I love Halloween so sue me. I run a Halloween website, whoopty doo. I also run a Pet site, and forum.

I have about had it with these religious bigots, NOT what God designed and it's the so called self made Christians causing so much atheisim in our society, not that they would ever admit to THAT. Just my opinion.

When non believers and non christians treat me with more respect than the religious christians out there, something somewhere is very very wrong.

Just sayin'

Don't get me wrong here, there are some good and decent Christians out there who are taking the hits for the not so Christian Christians, but they are few and far between from what I have been seeing, hearing and experiencing.  My relationship with God is between God and I, not a selective group of judgemental arrogant so called Christians. God does not tolerate arrogance so think about that for awhile those who are judging me for a HALLOWEEN oriented website. A site by the way that is about, HALLOWEEN.

To all those who do not judge me and have shown me respect regardless of their beliefs I thank you and you will get the same from me in return, always.

Rant over-Peace out.

And so the New Year begins. I can't say I'll miss much of 2011 but I am hoping for a better 2012 all the way around. I think it has possibilities as long as I stay open to it and not become closed off like I did last year. I'm finally learning that I'm not all alone and that sometimes those who drift in and out of our lives are the ones we learn the most from. Putting your trust out there isn't easy but it can often be worth the effort. My New Year's resolution is to continue getting to know me and those around me, learning is an intrical part of growing and I for one do not want to sit stagnant for this brand new year. I'll make my mistakes, learn as much as I can, and pray A LOT. Happy New Year to you
With Christmas just a few days away it would seem normal to have that old familiar holiday spirit but I just cannot seem to get there. No matter how I view things my perspective just stays in neutral, not moving forward yet not falling back either. I am trying to keep in mind that Christmas isn't about me or anyone else, it's about the birth of Jesus and that is why we really celebrate the day. 
So many people have forgotten that and made it about everything else but him. Maybe I will feel more positive tomorrow, and maybe something good will come of the current funk I find myself in. My thanks to S.O.S Radio for playing the right songs at the right time. Happy Holidays guys.
This I just had to share with those who visit often. I got an early birthday gift this year! To some it might sound ridiculous but to me it is just AWESOME. Everyone who knows me knows I have 3 favorite bands. The main one is Firewind, an incredible power metal band who I have been listening to since 2007.
Tonight I opened my inbox to find them (Yes the actual band) following me on Twitter! I am very greatful for this as I am a mere nobody on the planet earth so to have my favorite band following me is over the top!
Thank you Firewind! You made my birthday this year something to celebrate!
Very recently I have come to find that some who have claimed friendship are about as much a friend as a million dollars in my hand. It has been quite a learning experience and one this go around I won't forget.
Maybe it's because I've chosen God over dramatics and decietful intentions, or maybe it's just that I have grown where they have not and our journey as friends is over. Whatever the reasons I am actually okay with it and do not feel the need to even question it. People come into our lives all the time but that doesn't mean they were meant to stay.
We recently got our water put in after a year of problems with it. It did not  get done with anger, drama or Physical force but with honest prayer, faith and calmness that had been missing for many years. Once the anger was let go and the problem turned over to God, we now have our water. For those who do not believe in God, all I can do is pray for you, I hold no ill will towards anyone's religious beliefs and won't.
But to the person who told me believing in something you can't see is stupid, I have this to say to you. Believing you can change what's wrong when nothing is really changing is equally as dumb. I have what is called Faith, you have what is called Arrogance and in the Bible it CLEARLY states, God does not tolerate Arrogance. 1st Samuel 2:3 "Talk no more so exceeding proudly; let not arrogancy come out of your mouth: for the Lord is a God of knowledge, and by him actions are weighed."
I choose to believe what I believe and everyone else can believe what they want. Jesus said, "Before the world hated you, they hated me first." That says it all and he suffered the ultimate betrayal. So feeling betrayed by people for me is just not an issue, it's their loss.
Growing up my siblings used to tell me that my pain was just an illusion. My Sen-Sai on the other hand said pain is a warning sign something has happened and the body is re-acting to it. Something that goes against our body and it's natural defenses causes pain. It's kind of like that where God is concerned too.
Think of God as the body and we are going against him, his correction and discipline can often be very painful to us. Although I was born with Rheumatoid Arthritis, it did not really begin causing me pain until after a sports injury when I was 19. Pain causes various emotions, anger being one of the biggest. I used to be become not just angry but enraged when I felt that God was distant from me. I cried out in pain from the RA and because I didn't understand why God had left me in a time I needed him the most. It took a long time to realize God had not left me, I had left him.
The patience to wait for God to answer was just not there for me, so I turned away from him. In doing so I only had more pain and confusion and discontent. God does not turn away from us, he waits for us to recognize his signs and to repent our sins, ask for forgiveness and accept his son Jesus as our Saviour. Life is going to bring pain and loss and negative situations and emotions. It is up to us to take measures so that our lives have as little pain as possible. Start by remembering that there is a way, asking God to help you through your pain, whatever the cause, will surely bring a more positive reaction.
Today marks 30 years since my mother passed away. It has been a day of thinking, reflecting and again putting things into perspective. Life is too short a journey to whine and complain and be angry, to avoid dealing with everyday challenges and just doing the best you can.
My mother had problems, health as well as emotional but she always smiled and tried to give back to others what God had given to her, even if it was only a smile for a frantic cashier or spare change for a homeless man or woman, she never turned away.
She was a gifted woman, an R.N> of 25 years and she loved to sew, quilt and make special gifts for those who had so little.  A very dear friend said today on my FB that she was an angel watching over now, I pray that is true and I pray I can be a better person she would be proud of.
I don't think I ever told her enough, but I'm greatful to have had her as my mom. May God give her wings to guide her home to him.
At the end (or almost) of the day I have put a few more things into perspective. Fair weathered words over a computer mean little to nothing and as such is how they will be treated from now on. I was raised that actions speak louder than words and over time I forgot that motto. Not anymore. Sometimes it's good to put things into perspective, step back into reality and see what's being done, not what's being said.
Have a good weekend.