Sometimes in looking back on certain things we find ourselves living in our past. Some reflection is good but a lot of times it can get us into trouble. For an example, guilt. When we focus on things we've done or said that we know are wrong, we often go through pangs of guilt. This is where we tend to let our past interfere with our present and inevitably direct the course to our future. Guilt can be a guide to warn us not to repeat whatever caused the guilt to begin with, but far too often guilt is a poison that feeds into our emotions and destroys our beliefs and cracks our foundations causing us to doubt ourselves, others and even God.Memories are powerful motivators for guilt, anger and a host of negative thoughts and actions. When I lost the ability to walk. I went through a flood of emotions, emotions that were mixed with anger, bitterness and resentment. If not for the patience of God and the best friend I have ever had standing by me, I don't know where I would be right now. We are hoping and praying that we can find a Dr and that maybe, just maybe at some point we can get physical therapy. I may be "hopeless" to one therapist, but maybe not to all. My faith will have to get me through this. I will keep you updated.